Just Like That!!

So finally it has sunk in! I have nothing more to loose now. Anyway I go from here on has to be upwards. But to think of it , why did I enter the B school in the first place? Just like that , comes the reply if I put this question to myself. Was I even prepared for it? Was the timing right? Still many more questions need to be answered and I’m trying to figure that out.
The base is not right may be. Why Engineering first? I asked again , Just like that comes the reply. Not that I was some harbinger of a technological breakthrough. So then why? And after 4 years of reassurance that it was not my calling , why the core technical job? Just like that again!!
Strange are the ways of life. I don’t know how choices are made. Marketing tells me , it is based on some marginal valuation of utility. But how to decide the reference point? Economics makes more sense may be especially the law of diminishing returns. After we achieve a target , it looses its value. How much effort I may have put to reach my goal, it looses importance once I get there. Why then do I play this dangerous game again. I keep running after something , knowing it will loose its charm in the end. Still we are all running!

Time and again , which way will I go now? What lies ahead! What am I striving for?
I am running again…

But why?
Just like that ! Comes the reply!!